I pray that you will be at peace wherever you are. We will try to be okay without you though it's so hard to live each day now that you're gone. I've tried to run over my head a million times what had transpired since 4th of November, 2012, but I cannot come to accept that you are gone. Since that 3 AM call and our lives was changed. Changed forever. I am grieving for you Brother. I see you in my head alive and talking, laughing, joking...No matter what I do, I cannot stop thinking about you. They say that people have their own way of coping over a lost love one. And maybe this is my way. I cannot do less. Everyday, I wake up, do things, work, talk, laugh, but my hear is in pain. really in pain. Full of longing. If only. If only time can be recalled. If only that accident never happened at all. If only...